I have found it hard to be patient on the Lord-over the past few months I have seen my need to have control over situations, over my plans and over my life. Although I love the Lord and have desired to honour and serve Him, instead of letting Him lead me, I pushed him out of the way and have begun to sprint ahead.
These next few months of me learning to “be still” in the Lord will be a time of tearing down and re-building (Ecclesiastes 3:3). Even in the past few days I have begun to see myself trying to busy myself instead of literally sitting down and resting. Trying to always have myself occupied instead of just sitting and being still. Are you someone like me? Finding it hard to just sit and enjoy a moment or an afternoon? That you feel a need to always be up and about, doing something or getting something done..planning for the future or the next step? I pray that you, just as I will discover the art of truly being still, quieting our minds and soul into resting within His glorious and peaceful presence. That we ourselves wouldn’t be trying to take more than we can bear. As Jesus declares in Matthew 11:30″for my yoke is easy and burden is light”. For we begin to try to bite off more than we can chew, rather than being satisfied in what the Lord has already given us.
I am slowly learning the true cost of being a disciple (Luke 14:25-34) and the depth behind giving up everything to follow the Lord, even my desire to have everything planned out. I trust the Lord is bringing me back to the beginning point, allowing me to re-gain my faith in Him and trust in God through every situation-for when we are in the Lords presence we will no longer feel anxious or worried but gain a serenity in which we are content through whatever we may face. For I am in the process of learning, taking to much, being rebuked and taught again- learning how to not jump from one thing to another, trying to sprint through life rather than enjoying it one step at a time. instead of trying to do what others expect of me-doing what the Lord desires of me.
I pray that if you are losing sight of the Lord’s desire for you, that you would take a step back-let go of what you have built up on your own and allow the gracious Lord to re-ground and begin laying a stronger foundation in Him. May you allow the Holy Spirit to re-direct you and embrace the unknown. Lord may you pave the way for me-guiding each step, as I trust in you..may you show me the next step.
“Let love and faithfulness never leave you, bind them around your neck,write them on the tablet of your heart…Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.”